Over it
Journal Entry: Mon Apr 14, 2008, 6:37 AM
Life is boring and scary.
You grow up not noticing how good you have it- you live day to day, live your stupid life- ignore your parents and just play. Then you turn about or around five
and then you start noticing things. I am not going to go into detail but I know I noticed the abscence of a dad.
You do the school thing, waste the weekends sitting at home alone (i did)
if you are like me you make few friends- not being a sheep doesnt help.
You waste the time not learning cause u think its boring, you have a big mouth like me well you ruin it for others too- though you dont know it at the time.
You have moments. faded memories of triumphs small and insignificant.
then you wake up one day the manager of some job you dont hate but realise your ambition is gone. Dreams have been dead for years. Faith in parents gone mostly except for glimmering moments. depressing as all hell really.
bad things- car is dirty, house is pigsty, nervous about driving mum and sisters to airport- they only been in my car once, scared of anything going wrong while they away. Haven't spoken to ian and he hasnt called me. Guess i meant so much to him. WORK, im stupid, i know nothing. Getting married- lol ha omg rofl i am going to have to organise ev thing and i dont want to. Lonely even when im not alone these days. No dancing.
good things
matchbox twenty
getting married
holidays
selling stuff on ebay
sleep
cuddles
little sisters
dancing
hmm sigh.
- Mood:
Emotional - Listening to: numb linken park
- Reading: raymond e feist
- Watching: nothing
- Playing: wow
- Eating: little
- Drinking: dc
Devious Comments
just
parents split up- once bad enough second set bad.
work work work
wow ate my babies
visit soon?
love mad
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all these things we think we are, are only a drop on a pond tops depths and we watch the ripples as we decide what to be....
Just seeing if you're still alive.
WoW EATS PEOPLE! FIGHT BACK!
Hugs and kisses.
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What do you mean, you're miserable too?
This is MY tragedy!
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They can take my voice when they pry it from my cold, dead throat.
Stop by and check out my Angry Hippie's Blog and Podcast [link]
Or WHATSABUDGET Films on youtube [link]
*Apophysis
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all these things we think we are, are only a drop on a pond tops depths and we watch the ripples as we decide what to be....
--
They can take my voice when they pry it from my cold, dead throat.
Stop by and check out my Angry Hippie's Blog and Podcast [link]
Or WHATSABUDGET Films on youtube [link]
*Apophysis
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Steph: hi
Artur: hi.
Steph: whats up!!
Artur: i dunno!!!
Steph: !!!!
Six hours later
Artur: why did you start this convo!!!
Steph: UGH SHUT UP I FELT LIKE TALKING TO SOMEONE
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The world is deep--and more profound than day would have thought.
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Poetry and Hums aren't things which you get, they're things which get you. And all you can do is to go where they can find you. ~Winnie-the-Pooh
"The work of the artist is to lift up peoples hearts and help them endure" - William Faulkner
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“The job of art is to chase ugliness away” - Bono.
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all these things we think we are, are only a drop on a pond tops depths and we watch the ripples as we decide what to be....
--
They can take my voice when they pry it from my cold, dead throat.
Stop by and check out my Angry Hippie's Blog and Podcast [link]
Or WHATSABUDGET Films on youtube [link]
*Apophysis
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dance like no one is watching;
love like you've never been hurt;
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"The Dragon Being" My Graphic Novel in progress [link]
I'm not Epic, I'm LEGENDARY! LOL
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“The job of art is to chase ugliness away” - Bono.
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“The job of art is to chase ugliness away” - Bono.
Thanks again.^-^
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My best friend is my pencil and the paper is my lover.
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I am not the director of Fahrenheit 9/11 nor am i the 7 foot black boxer also im not the scientist i am the 6 foot white kid so stop asking
i am the best Mike Moore
Clubs im in ~SpaceScapes ~innerspace
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"Only the narrow minded fail to see that the definition of impossible is 'lack of imagination and incentive'."
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i think i'm
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Steph loves you! Please visit me!
The problem is that God gives men a brain and a penis, and only enough blood to run one at a time - Robin Williams
You love me enough to click this, right?
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Step through the looking glass...
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i will never need to see the sun again
there's enough light in your eyes
to light up all the world
so take me, take me away
kill me slowly, we'll never be the same - this flesh a tomb by Atreyu
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